Sorry for my most recent absence – school has continued to be crazy and I’ve had a ton of work to do at home. I am not even going to recap the last three days, I’ll just move on.
I was really frustrated with a student today when reality hit me like a ton of bricks. K never does any work, refuses to sit in his assigned seat every day, and refuses to take of his jacket every day (keep in mind, I teach 8th grade, not 1st). K was at the classroom computer in the middle of my lesson and I made a comment about behavior like that being why we can’t go to the computer lab, and another student yelled at him (and since I’m at my school, accompanied it with a smack to the back of the head). K almost started to cry and I felt like someone punched me in the stomach. A child is being picked on and I’m yelling at them? I literally stopped cold and sat down to have a kind conversation with him about what was going on. A child is showing multiple signs of depression and my response is anger? That is not why I became a teacher. As terrible as my classroom management is, I do have great relationships with most of my students (to the point where many of them come to me to help sort out issues with other teachers). While I already make a point to ask about sick family members, colds, moves, etc. my new plan is to stop myself at least once a period and think about the way I am speaking to my students.
On the work, paperwork, side I have to stop letting molehills become mountains. When I feel overwhelmed sometimes I just shut down but that doesn’t do anything to chip away at the problem. The nightly House episodes aren’t helping either, so I might have to start pretending my TV is still broken! In spite of an effort to stay on top of my work, I’ve also decided I need to balance my multiple sources of stress. With the way the English dept. at my school is run I will always be behind, I might as well be a bit more behind and go to the gym.
I ran some errands after school, and by the time I finally got home I’d had time to think. I decided I needed to get a fresh start to hit the refresh button. I took the world’s longest shower, complete with two types of shampoos and soaps, followed by a face mask and a pedicure. I’m ready to tackle my to-dos.
I’ll be back tomorrow morning with an actual food post, I greatly appreciate you bearing with me while I get myself in order. Muchas Gracias!